Saturday, October 07, 2006
7:16 AM


I don't know if it's just me, or it's the air, or if it's really happening.

I feel so.. lost? I think so, yeah. I feel lost. So lost. Lost. See what I mean?

I was hoping for promos to be over as quickly as possible(actually it is passing by pretty pretty fast, for me at least) and hoping things would get better. But by the looks of it, I'm doubting things would be normal again.

Oh my I just cursed. Astaghfirlahaazim. You're fasting Izyan, don't curse. Astaghfirlahalazim.

The object of my utter hatred is my tablet now, not only does it distract me. But it's so annoying. I'm complaining now, but I'll realise later that I should be thankful, bla bla bla, which is true la. I am fortunate that I have my own laptop, and I don't need to use the house computer, which has officially gone off its rockers for its own good. Now can't go internet ah. See la, this is what happens when I count on my brothers to take good care of that machine. I remembered vividly, "No games, no online games" haha. But I don't know why it's so hard for them to refrain themselves. I mean, they have an XBOX! Tell me if that's not enough to entertain them? I realised they're starting to hog this little machine too. According to my brother, he wants to use it to chat. Okay so I believe him. But once I let them use, I don't know. I guess i have to count on trust from having suspicions of their doings.

And I don't get, why I give in to them so much. I can't recollect them being nice to me. But I can definitely remember them being ungrateful towards me. Sad isn't it?

Enough about those two.

The object of my affection(which also happens to be the title of a book I'm currently reading) is that widdle sylvester. I guess that's the only you I have.

Who cares anyway?
Bah, when can I ever get better. I don't want to go to the docs cos they're expensive(the good ones at least) and they might just ask me to break fast. I don't want to waste any of my ramadhan days, cos I might, just might have to not fast during OBS, which is totally UNFAIR. But I'm counting the good company and I pray that God will give us five the strength to pull through those five days. (: And I pray that my cough and booger problem will bid farewell soon. hehe.

So I'm left with HUMANSSSSSSSS! TWO MORE PAPERS AND I'M FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, for now. Cos I still got MADRASAH EXAMS! RAHAHA. AND THIS TIME I REALLY REALLY HOPE I GET GOOD GRADES FOR MADRASAH! Cos I can't afford getting six again... it's very demoralizing. But I guess it's a lesson I am to learn. Which is, I shouldn't slack nor take things for granted, thinking that they will turn out easy cos if i put effort into it, insyaAllah it will turn out good(:

Anyhoos, I better get going.
=D